Losing It

The most recent thing to really freak my shit out happened yesterday around noon.

I was on Facebook (my new addiction that has kept me from blogging as much, which I need to correct...), and the computer was working fine.  Then, without warning, it just stopped functioning.  Everything froze.   So, I turned off the system, waited a minute or two, and then tried to re-start it.  It didn't come back on.  After 30 seconds or so, a blinking picture of a file with a question mark on it was flashing on the screen.

I didn't know exactly what that meant, but I instantly got a feeling of dread.  My stomach sunk, and my chest started to hurt.  

After contacting Apple, and then taking the computer to the Apple doctor, I found that my hard-drive was toast.  That's it, no warning, no fudging, no weird noises, nothing.  Just stopped working.

Soooo, the laptop was covered, so I got a new hard-drive installed, but I have successfully lost EVERY FUCKING THING ON THE COMPUTER.  I don't back shit up.  I never have.  But, I will now.  According to the tech who took a look at it, the most common problem with the Mac hard drives is that there are these freaking tiny little springs inside the hard drive that wear out.

REALLY?  FUCKING SPRINGS?  REALLY?

So, technology from the fucking dark ages has somehow lost all my pictures, business stuff, art, addresses, worksearch stuff, and everything else is FUCKING GONE because of some little springs smaller than a peppercorn.  Really?

AND, it lost all my lovely wife's stuff, too.   Which hurts me more than I can say.  I'm just SICK SICK SICK about it.  I can't even sleep over it.  I feel like I did something wrong because I was using the computer when it went kaput.  I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!!!  But, for some reason, I still feel like kicking my own ass over this.  I don't understand.

I mean, the tech guy said that there is NO reason for why this stuff happens.  It just does.  Those little parts are only made to last a couple of years, and they expect that you will back up your hard-drive once in awhile.  Has the technology not caught up with those of us who are too lazy to live our lives NOT in love with our computer-box?

The worst part is, to get all the "lost" info off the old hard drive will cost $300-2500 to get.  I'm not even sure what they do to the damn thing to "get" the information.   My moronic understanding is that someone will have to dismantle the hard drive and get the info off the disks inside it individually.  So, there ya go.   Some BASTARD is gonna charge me an arm and a leg to "fetch" the information and laugh later to his buddies about how people pay him a STUPID amount of money for doing so little.

I'm definitely in the wrong business.

Breathe in, breath out.